“I know this must seem completely reasonable from the outside looking in, but so many pastors’ kids get lost in the shadow of the church.”
Sarah Jakes shares her frustration with not being able to find herself, or a place within her father’s church ministry. From a young age, she was concerned how other people always asked about her father, T.D. Jakes, and no one asked about her well-being. She felt no one was interested in her, Sarah, as a person.
Sarah further shares growing up as a child, her feelings toward her siblings, and the embarrassment of being pregnant at age thirteen. Being unable to find the right ministry to connect with had only compounded her troubles.
Even though Sarah became pregnant at age thirteen, she explains the reasoning behind not revealing the biological father. She felt that since he was a teenager also, he should have the opportunity to live a normal teenage life. Sarah did not want him to go through the same ridicule from others as she did.
As Sarah tells her story, it is more of an insight into her marriage. Dealing with a man who whose continuous infidelity, before and after marriage, eventually shattered their relationship. Sarah gives her reason for holding on as the need to have someone to care about her. What Sarah did not realize was her parents did care about whatever she went through, and were there to lend a helping hand.
Sarah Jakes’ journey through testimony is nothing new or earth shaking to speak on. It is a close-up look into a personal struggle with self-esteem, needing love as an individual, and not standing in the shadow of her famous father. I found it a little tame, coming from someone who experienced motherhood at such a young age. No discussion was presented on the particular events leading to her promiscuity. I was not looking for a play-by-play intimate act, but more detailed interactions of her relationship with the father. It seems she is still looking for sympathy for her actions. This would have been an excellent opportunity to reach teenage girls dealing with the same situations. Overall, the book was an easy read, yet leaving some unanswered questions. I recommend this novel to Christian readers.
I received this book free from Bethany House Publishers through the Bethany House Reviewers program for an honest and unbiased review.